Self-judgement is of the mind, an intelligence that can turn against us. We judge ourselves for not being enough, we judge ourselves to be lacking. The faculty of our being that allows for judgement is what we call discriminating awareness. This form of intelligence is indispensable to live, create and make sense of the universe. However, to use it correctly requires wisdom, requires understanding. In its original right it is an intelligence that enables us to differentiate one thing from another e.g. I from other, milk from cow, up and down, home and away, truth from false and so on. Absolutely useful and completely necessary. The problem arises when we use this intelligence to assess our self-worth. We suffer because we believe our basic sense of value is a relative thing, that it is dependent on our appearance, status, wealth, skill, success etc. When someone or something is more desirable than us, better than us, smarter than us, humbler than us, we reactively judge ourselves by mistakenly concluding that we are not enough. We feel worthless… We feel less than… Consequently, we experience ourselves to be lacking.
“The problem is not the fact that we compare, but that we compare in a judgmental way. Our superego dominates our observations and we end up saying, “This is acceptable, that is not acceptable.” Everything is seen as good or bad, preferable or not, more evolved than someone else’s experience or not, and the result is that we can’t let ourselves be where we are.”
A.H. Almaas ～ The Unfolding Now, pg. 82
The good thing is that this activity of judgemental comparison is voluntary, it is non-essential. When you reach a certain depth of understanding reality, you begin to see crystal clearly that all these stories we tell ourselves of not being enough, of being scarce, of lack are unconsciously constructed by the mind. That these judgements are habitual patterns grounded in a narrative we tell ourselves about who we are, who everyone else is and the world. We do this because we have lost touch with our essential nature, we are not seeing reality clearly, we are not seeing ourselves for what we truly are. When we wake up to our essence the wheel of suffering begins to slow down. You begin witnessing the incessant activity of constantly being consumed by your thoughts and narratives, life-drama. You begin to catch yourself as you negatively judge yourself and others. We have the potential to cease perpetuating this activity. We can stop contracting into our patterned narratives about the world, what we are, and who everyone else is. Instead we begin to abide, to be as we are, as a living presence.
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